My worst fears has come true. I have really failed my 1st observation. It was actually a zero for everything and i am not exaggerating. I can show u the APT form if u think i am. Now she says she's coming on friday for the 2nd one. Guys, looks like i can't be a teacher anymore.

am so so depressed. i know there r worse things in life than tis. but i feel any future events that will come wif wun be gd. My job is one thing. how to pay the bond? how to answer to ppl that i can't grad wif the rest? dat my pay will be cut into half.

I really think i will fail my 2nd practicum. My heart is so heavy tt God's Word can't seem to pull it back to its normal status.

I really dunno wat is wrong wif me. My teaching standard has really dropped. I dun need anyone telling me tis; i know it.

I dun dare to cry but i dunno wat else to do. The next 2 days will be filled with panic, doubts, fear and many other worse things.

Nothing is uplifting me. My face is wearing a mask. So that i can hide my true feelings inside, and hopefully no one will see them.

Right now, i just dunno wat to do. Maybe I should just accept that I'm not teacher material?