I know i shouldn't be resting on my laurels and be proactive about my circumstances at work but nowadays i feel so drained out and tired. I'm also worried cos tis week is the PSLE week. I really really am praying hard for the cooperation from the boys. Do u think i should fast for some guidance and intervention into their good behaviour? haiz.... I'm also worried if my lack of energy is due to my thyroid fluctuating to the hypothyroid. I can't seem to pick up the pace, to push myself as before. There's no drive even though I have a lot of things to push me. It's like a real stubborn brake inside of me, or a veil covering my eyes, my mind and my heart over the seriousness of the situation I am in.

At the same time however, I am also experiencing a shock from a family news. It's gonna be a trying time for all of us. I really wonder sometimes, why is our path getting harder and harder? If experience is supposed to make us stronger, why do we need this much strength then? To prepare for something worse? Why do some go through more trying times than others? Why do we have to go through some difficulties that others need not face yet?

I wish i can be specific about what has happened but i can't as this is still public. I can only ask for you readers to continue praying for myself in my career and health, as well as for my family. Pray for strength, guidance and protection.

Thanks and with much love